Since a fews days , my heart feeling so lonely and myself getting tired of crying . And my heart going to stop to fall in love again . Let my heart just stop by him . The last person I loved the most for now is him . And I won't think about to have any special relationship anymore and I'm not going to build up again my hope . I've started to think more about my family . I'm Forever Alone now . From now on , I just wanna hide everything pain inside whenever it's the hardest part . I won't put the burden on anybody bcuz I love them so much . I just letting them know I'm live happily and just see my Fake Smile and I'm Sorry about that . As the truth , I just can't stand all this by myself but I have through it slowly . For the first time I've been scolded by a customer in front of many of people at the restaurant . That moment , only Allah S.W.T know how my feeling was . I just can't stop crying that time . But I have to be strong enough bcuz I have to work . While I'm crying , I see my parent's face and his face . And that feeling just going more terrible . Hm . I just missing the old of us . Today such a tears day of me . And I just crying all the night when I back home even when I finished my work , I sitting for awhile and I still crying .